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Here's the entry I posted on FOD last night because LJ was down for maintainance... having two journals is nice. :)

Livejournal's all down and being stupid and stuff right now and I feel the need to write something and it's frustrating so I must resort to the old crapness that is FOD. Soo... I had an emotional breakdown this afternoon. It was great fun. Liz and I were on the computer and she made some crack about being full of myself and I took it seriously. So I spent the next 30 minutes or so being mad and all "blah, stupid woman... grr!" and then she talked to me and I told her what was going on. So, yeah, like I said she was just joking around, but then I felt really bad for being mad at her. I mean, I had no reason for it and it was just a big misunderstanding. I felt really bad, and I was like "well, anger really doesn't help anything. I've seen where it's gotten my mom in all her relationships and it just isn't healthy" and on and on and on. So I just broke down and started crying and then we started talking some more just about... future and such, and the subject of college was brought up and how I was planning on coming back as much as possible. It's just going to be so crazy being away from her for so long, but I can at least write her e-mails and talk to her online... and I could take up the lost art of writing a snail mail letter... fancy that. It's more personal, so it's probably be cooler for her to get something in the mail from me. So we talked about all that and just all that... "I believe we're right for eachother" and "The future always has you in it" stuff... it was pretty cool. After that was done we basically just sat on the couch... So, Billy, the moral of this story is that emotional breakdowns can be stressful, but they often bring you closer to those you love. Peace, I'm out.

-Nathan-

Rain

Now for today... so last night I woke up to rain just THUMPING on our house, and it's 15 million times worse when your roof is tin... so while I was trying to fall back asleep I wrote a bit of a poem in my head, now I'm going to take the opprotunity to finish it up.

Lightning strikes down on the land
As it cuts accross the sky.
The thunder sounds all through my house
It is the lightning's cry.
The rain pours down upon my roof,
each drop my roof does feel.
It douses all those lasting fires,
and makes them seem less real.
Drowning out all sound and life
The rain brings warmth from fear.
The rain puts out those deadly fires,
The rain is all I hear.
It comforts me in times of pain,
It lets me know I'm safe.
But if the rain were to never stop,
that wouldn't be so great.
I would tire of the constant downpour
And wish for something new.
I'd wish the fires to come back,
I'd wish for something new.
The rain is nice for certain,
but never all the time.
To have the rain always there
would be a natural crime.
The thunder sounds all through my house,
makeing windows shake.
The lighning cuts accross the sky,
and the lighning it does make
The room light up with a flash,
and briefly cure my woes.
Why it makes me feel so great,
I don't think I'll ever know.

Newness

hey everyone. I created a community. For anybody who's interested, it's for all you uber dorks out there who like roleplaying... mind you there's only like... 3 people or so like that on my friends list, but oh well. Spread the word, yo. Oh yeah, the link is probably something that you'd need. Well, here it is. roleplaypuppets

It's all in how you use it...

( '02 - '03 school year survey! )

pie pants

Yarr... I've decided that on my birthday, people I like (and people that are in town) should come over to my house, because I want to do something (damn this dynamic tomfoolery of mine). So, if your in town on thursday, come to my house. We're probably just gonna watch movies, and there'll be cake. Yeah, I think that's it... we might go to urban or something later on and play games or something, but I guess we'll decide that when we get there. That's all for now. Oh yeah, if you don't know how to get here I'd be more than happy to give you directions. I'll be e-mailing something out here in a second.

**EDIT**

Left out some important details. It's going to be at 7 o'clock, so try to be there at or around then. Keep in mind that my house is like a cardboard box, so there can't be a lot of crashing around and stuff (tori, if you want to bring your DDR stuff that would be cool) umm... RSVP by leaving a note saying if you can or cannot make it... this is important. RSVPing is key.