Ergh...

[leujin]

Had emotional breakdown. Most not fun. We went to Santa Fe and Best Buy and I bought Finch and Manson and Bill and Ted's excellent adventure and blah. Then we went to Walmart and my scrotum hurt and it was really weird... then we came home eventually and... I just totally and completely flipped out. I called Sara and we're leaving at noon tomorrow which sucks so much ass and I don't know why, and today has just been really insanely stressful and that was basically just the straw that broke the camel's back. I mean, it was an EMOTIONAL BREAKDOWN. It could probably even be called an anxiety attack. I just... couldn't even look at Liz... I felt like if I didn't look at her again I wouldn't have to say goodbye to her. I couldn't speak. I wanted to say so much about everything but I couldn't. I still can't. I feel like I'm never going to talk again. I freaked out. I just... comeing back home reminds me of why I missed it here so much and I don't want to go back to Denver. I hate it there. I don't know anybody there. I don't know anything there. I hate it there. I like it here. It has my girlfriend and my friends and my family and all the businesses and everything happy that I know that makes life wondeful and not suck~ass for Nathan. I still don't want to go back. I know I'm probably going to have to throw myself out the door in order to get into Ingrid's car tomorrow. Good fuck.


Oh, yeah, on the happy sex~stuff side of everything, while we were waiting for my mom to show up I returned the oral favor to Liz. Yes, it was good. Kind of sour (as in it tasted sour), but definately something I'd be willing to do again. We're also quite convinced that it's the house that has a hex on it, because I couldn't get it up in order to insert it, but... there was lots of everything else and I did climax. I'm sure you all care and everything. I'm going to go back to... whatever it is I was doing now.