Woe angst, waa waa
Apr. 28th, 2007 01:14 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
leujinIt occurred to me that I haven't done any sort of "this is how my life is going" posts for awhile, so I figured it's high time. I mean, yeah, I talk about my job, but there's more going on with me than just that.
I dunno. I'm honestly feeling kind of depressed right now. I don't really know why, it just kind of slapped me in the face out of nowhere. I'm just bored. Maybe it's not depression. I think I'm just tired of sitting around here doing nothing for 5 days a week, and then going to an office for 2 days a week where I get treated like a fucking mule.
I think I need to shake things up a bit. I know I've said that I would do it before, and I usually don't end up doing anything. Quite honestly I would love to have some sort of retail job, because then I could feel like I'm actually helping people out with something. It sounds stupid, but I think it would make me feel better. I put in my application at GameStop and this retail~y place in 16th street. I did that Tuesday, and... I dunno, hopefully they'll get back to me before I go completely bat shit.
I can't pay rent. It sucks. I feel like a big useless leach, because Liz is having to cover me, and even she can't do that. She has to borrow money. I would borrow money, but my mom pretty much killed any chance of me being able to do that.
I don't even talk to my dad anymore, so there's no way I could borrow money from him. I tried e-mailing him a few weeks ago, and he never responded. I'd be willing to believe that Betty has completely brain washed him into believing that his kids are no longer a part of his life, and he should just let go. I fucking hate that woman. My dad used to be a nice person, and he just turned into a wad of cookie dough once he got married to her.
I feel useless. I think I'm going to take the dog for a walk.
I dunno. I'm honestly feeling kind of depressed right now. I don't really know why, it just kind of slapped me in the face out of nowhere. I'm just bored. Maybe it's not depression. I think I'm just tired of sitting around here doing nothing for 5 days a week, and then going to an office for 2 days a week where I get treated like a fucking mule.
I think I need to shake things up a bit. I know I've said that I would do it before, and I usually don't end up doing anything. Quite honestly I would love to have some sort of retail job, because then I could feel like I'm actually helping people out with something. It sounds stupid, but I think it would make me feel better. I put in my application at GameStop and this retail~y place in 16th street. I did that Tuesday, and... I dunno, hopefully they'll get back to me before I go completely bat shit.
I can't pay rent. It sucks. I feel like a big useless leach, because Liz is having to cover me, and even she can't do that. She has to borrow money. I would borrow money, but my mom pretty much killed any chance of me being able to do that.
I don't even talk to my dad anymore, so there's no way I could borrow money from him. I tried e-mailing him a few weeks ago, and he never responded. I'd be willing to believe that Betty has completely brain washed him into believing that his kids are no longer a part of his life, and he should just let go. I fucking hate that woman. My dad used to be a nice person, and he just turned into a wad of cookie dough once he got married to her.
I feel useless. I think I'm going to take the dog for a walk.
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Date: 2007-04-28 09:08 pm (UTC)Try some new art. It might make you feel better and if it's not total shit you can sell it later!
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Date: 2007-04-28 11:38 pm (UTC)